Mixed emotions

Until when am i going to give?
until when am i going to pretend?
until when do i need to understand?
and until when am i going to keep this?

I'm not perfect,

I do pretend that everything is fine

I understand things need to be understand

but until when am i going to be this way.

I'm just human,

I feel hurt, I feel sad

I feel what you feel

And hoping you can feel that way too.

I try to give up
I try to surrender

I try to say goodbye

But I can't coz' i"m still hoping that everything will be fine.

I cry and laugh, I sing and dance

Like everything is fine

But in the end of the day, 

I just pretend that I'm alright.

How many times I have to be this way?

How many times I need to suffer?

It hurts more than I thought

Its killing me.

I admit, I commit mistakes

I become irresponsible

I become selfish

But have you ever looked at the mirror?

I'm starting to get tired

Tired of everything. . .

But I keep holding on

Coz' i know this is part of the test.

Oh GOD, give me more strength,

Strength and courage to pass this test

I know your the only one,

The ONLY ONE who can help me.

Everything will soon be fine. . .